How are you doing today? It’s Sunday yet again – what a surprise! At least, that’s literally how I feel eeevery single weekend.
Like everybody else in this world I’m simply trying to avoid suffering, hopefully, achieve some sort of contentment, and give something back to the world (preferably a wisdom of some sort). But it’s not that easy, is it?
Yes, thank you, I’ve got something to say. To my brain.
Hello, Brain! What’s up? Apparently a whole lot of yada yada yada.
Because here’s the thing, saying that you want to be content, happy, and/or something else is super sweet on paper but in real life, there are so much more to consider. It’s a scrubby, rocky road, life is. It’s complicated, it’s frustrating, and, quite frankly, it’s a bit of an emotional rollercoaster.
See this footbridge? How clean, flat, straight, and simple it is? Yes? Yup, that’s nothing like life.
But why am I saying this? Everybody already knows. Let me tell you why in the shortest way I can: Because it really doesn’t matter what we know as long as we don’t understand it.
For instance, I know that material things won’t make me essentially happy. But I still want that car (I’m really into cars at this very moment, can’t help it – four wheels and a metallic cover is like the ultimate porn).
Life, in its own complicated and complex way, should be fun. It should be a crazy process of mistakes and rightful choices, of good intentions and really ugly outcomes. And yet, I and so many with me, struggle to enjoy the ride.
“When I’m older, eeeeeverything will have worked out just fine. Then I’ll know what to do.”
“After I’ve fulfilled this particular part of *insert whatever suits your interests* I’ll be so secure and great!”
Essentially, the problem is my thinking – aka my brain.
It has freaking parties up there alongside with Gloom, Anguish, and Frustration. Hey, guys.
These lovely fellas are easily fed by whatever comes by. A bad result? A weird world? Strange decisions? I believe – or you know, ascribe – some of it to external circumstances but it’s still my job to be the watcher of my thoughts (as it’s beautifully presented in meditation). This is hard at times, as when a nazi party is demonstrating in our city. This happened yesterday. It made me sad, upset, and angry – as it should. The problem is when the feeling of being despondent lingers instead of lighting up a fire of change. The will to make this world a better place.
I want to be free from my thoughts, from the savage parties in my brain, and from whatever keeps me from contentment and from changing the world at least a little bit.
So many of us want this. Still, I and so many with me, struggle with the understanding of taking control of our own actions and thoughts. It’s tough. No, no, let me correct that: It’s brutal. Wildly brutal.
Let’s make an effort to snap out of it together, shall we? Create a better world for us and others alongside with each other.
I like that thought. Good boy, Brain, good boy.